Thursday, January 17, 2019

My Soul Is Weeping - RIP Paddy ... RIP Falcor - The Loss of Two Friends Today

I write this through sobbing tears.  I haven't posted about Zoo Friends passing in many years.  Today has been devastating.  

I woke up to the news that my dearest Farm Friend Paddy passed away.  My heart was broken.  Paddy was my bestie.  We spent so much time hanging out, having walks, and treats and many hugs.  I could go on, as I have known Paddy many many years, filled with many special memories, but the point of this post isn't to pour my heart out about how much I loved him and our time together. He knew how I felt about him.  A senior, as time went on, every visit with him was a cherished blessing. The Farm won't be the same without him.  For those who don't know Paddy, he was born at the Farm, the longest living Goat. I looked forward to celebrating his 18th Birthday with him in June.  Bless you my Friend.  I Love You and will miss you.

I sobbed all day.  Devastated at the loss of my Paddy.  Hard to believe I would never see him again. Sad there would be no more Paddy hugs and seeing his smiling face.  When I woke from a nap not long ago, feeling nauseous and sad, I had to break the news to a friend, now that she was home from work.  She also loved Paddy.  With tears streaming I typed the words. As we exchanged messages about how much we loved Paddy, another friend messaged me, Falcor (Komodo Dragon) died.  My heart was crushed again.

I have written many posts about Falcor.  I loved this little guy since before he got here.  He was another one of my besties.  I may not have been hands on with him like with Paddy, but he had my heart and I know he knew me.  I spent alot of time with him, especially when he was still living in that awful terrarium.  He would come to the window for face-time and I would often open the door so he could see the outdoor world.  We would just hang-out while he looked outside.  I am heartbroken he is gone.  We spent alot of time together and very sad, I won't see his little face again or look into his eyes and smile at him.  I knew he was having some health trouble.  I have been worried and have been saying prayers all week for him. When I saw him Tuesday, his head was slumped on the ground, eyes closed and he had a sad look on his face.  Hard to see.  I came back around to check on him and his eyes were open.  He saw me and lifted his head up in my direction.  I was so happy to see him be alert.  Thankful for this last eye contact with him. This has been a truly gut-wrenching and devastating day.  

For those who haven't followed Falcor's story, you can search his name on this blog.  I don't want to get into it all, but its not secret I have never felt he was respected at the Zoo.  It started with the name they gave him.  At least he won't have to hear being called Big Daddy ever again.  They waited too long to do something about his injury.  He was forced to live in an inadequate home for too long, possibly hindering his growth and the progress of his surgery rehabilitation.  Finally getting a proper home, I think he had some time of happiness in his short sad life at the Zoo.   Bless you My Friend.  I Love You and will miss you.  

The tears won't stop.  The frown won't leave my face.  I Miss My Friends.   

The person who messaged me about Falcor's passing, saw it on Facebook.  I don't look at the Zoo's FB, but went there to see what they had written and also to confirm what I knew in my heart, they didn't mention Paddy's passing at all.   No surprise, like with whose Birthday they mention, they pick whose passing to mention.  As if the loss isn't hard enough, it makes me feel incredibly sad that all Animals are not given equal recognition.  That was the purpose of this post.  Shameful. 

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Saturday, January 5, 2019

Posts in Draft - Goals for Blog

I've missed my goals once again.  
I have posts in draft I wanted to 
finish posting by end of the year.  
Every time I attempt them I get 
incredibly overwhelmed and 
the weight has me holding back tears.  
I wonder if anyone associated with 
the Zoo ever feels that heavy of frustration.  
... Will try again tomorrow.




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